debby once told me that i had severe mood swings.. and i remember staring at her(and she dint know) in utter disbelief.. i have always thought myself to be a very stable person..
but ya today.. i wld just go " ya right"... maybe im starting to understand myself better..
it's not wrong notta understand yourself.. and get laughed at for not being able to understand yourself.. becos i believe there's prolly 10 thousands of pple out there who aint able to unds themselves.. comprehend their emotions.. enunciate their thoughts..
like me...
im just learning how to understand the people ard me better and know what those little actions mean..
my mood swings are prettaye severe i realied today... i could feel high one moment and become extremely withdrawn the next moment..

anyhows.. im starting to like my new group.. i think this is my first group that is balanced... you always start to realise those people u actly thought you wldn like or wldn be able to get along with actly had extremely admirable qualities... like one of the guys in the group.. he was prolly one i cldn tahan at all.. but sitting with him during bio and now my table grp made me realised.. he isn't that bad aft all.. he's just merely more sacarstic than normal pple and otherwise.. he's all nice and everything.. and the girl i thought i wldn be able to click with.. cos of our diff. cultures.. things are turning out better than I think.. and im getting happier and happier...

that's how beautiful our class is.. we are actually an amalagam of diverse future leaders placed together unique in our ways.. every single one of us have qualities that i look up to and sometimes it makes me feel really small... and we have a great civics tutor who never fail to amuse us with his childhood tales and inspire us with his principles and drive...

i just want more personal time to think.. not emo mind you.. i realised i have made many mistakes in the past... or should i say last year... many many mistake... EOYs were a turning point... and t42 session changed me alot.. also i feel the pple ard me changing.. some for the better some for the worse.. i cant help but judge and it makes me feel the agon of liking and disliking sometimes..

okay... we have testimonial match tmr... wish every1 on the best and let's have fun
jiemin: eh tmr testimonial match alr leh.. how ah.. eh you must block all the balls and protect me kay (like what the hells can.. jiemin is actly saying that)
me: eh should be you protect me ymy.. and how am i gna protect u... it wld be good if i dont have to touch the ball at all.. and it wld be even better if you wldn even need to touch the ball right..
jiemin: but what if i dont touch the ball and you get to touch it..

zzzz cold... lame joke.. u get it?

<333 36 di san shi liu hao nan sheng... =D